I dont understand why the way I feel is not the way I think. Im not really feeling this, but I am thinking I am. As the title implys, its confusing. She lives far away and what the hell should I do about it? Anything? What would be the point? We would never have anything serious, would we? Could we actually trust each other to the fullest extent of the word? And after all, you need honesty and to feel that you trust the person in order to really be with them, dont you? What this all about you ask? Nothing, just thh ramblings of someone who doesnt understand anything they think about.
Not really much happens anymore for me around the 4th of July. My Great Grandma gets older and I cant even be there because she lives in a different state. I guess all there is tro do is drugs and shot some fireworks. Is that a really bad thing for me? Whose to say otherwise?
I really dont want to hurt anyone when I write this stuff. I just, want them to know the way I feel. I hope I havent really scarred anyone in any way. Especially you man, sorry if I made you feel bad.
Religon is catastrophic...
Religon is catastrophic because not everyone believes in the same things. Why? Because people have different morals then other people. People are different than other people. I and two of my friends recently did some discussing, it soon turned into a debate and then an understanding on all sides. God is everything, and God is nothing. When I say nothing, I really mean nothing. People say nothing is something but not in this instence, just bare with me for now. When we started the talking. I was talking with Aaron about good and bad. I said according to Tao, they dont exist. Now to understand this you must first know what Tao is, don't you? http://www.religiousworlds.com/taoism/ttcstan3.html this site is probably the best site you'll find about it online. Most others look flashy and fake. If you don;t understand the scripts then, basically Tao is everything. Absolutly everything. Tao literally translates to " The Way" the way of what? The way of everything. It is everlasting, its the way the river flows, the suns constant glow, the blackness of space, you're life, rocks, trees, planets, even an Alien species (if there is one). He said even in Tao, good and bad exist. Then Colin stepped in and told us that Tao was a lie... He said within hours of discussion, what he believes and now too, so do I. What happens when you know everything? When there is nothing left for you to do? I'll let you consider this for a while, and Ill right again son the rest of our discussion. Im sure you'll be suprised.
Have you ever met a person and completely decieved them from the start? Like a person you see in the mall and happen to talk to. Perhaps you say hello or excuse me in an English accent and then walk on by. If you have, you know it makes you nervous. Why? They don't know you and you'll likely never see that person again. Its weird, you feel scared because you think they can see threw you. It shows you what little faith you have in yourself, and when you have that amount of faith in yourself how can you put any real amount of faith in any other person or any "God" you praise? This is not supposed to make anyone angry. I believe that there is something higher, it is us, it is ourselves as one. But, thats for another time. What I'm simply trying to say is that. You can trick people and convince them that you're something your not, thats just so damn interesting to me. For that breif period of time those people actually believe that you are English or Russian or whatever you choose for an accent. I like to make people think Im actually a little dim-witted, incapable of some things. For instance I have a friend that has had a revolation in discovering "IT" its a simply concept I believe, basically theres something greater than God, something greater than everything. I've read about it before him discovering this, and he resently happened upon it himself. Its TAO, pronounced "Dow" it means "the way". The way of what....well its the way of everything, everything is Tao, nothing isnt. Nothing is Everthing. Its hard to explain in a simply blog and Im not going to type hours about it, thats what books are for (and there are books on it, go to your local Barnes & Knowbles). So he thinks he stumble on something no one ever has before. I dont know why but I believe he thinks he is destined to do something in this world and let everyone know it. Why? I dont know, its probably because he doesnt realize that his life is meaningless to everyone else on the planet and that the few people he interacts with now are going to forget about him in the next ten maybe fifteen years, unless he keep in contact with them of coarse...but thats going to require a lot of bending of his life. And a bent life, never ends in a full life. Thats the end of that rant. Goodnight.
tao
